WingsA Story by Ms. Starr
I only fell in love once. It was thrilling.
I met him for the first time in a dark room underwater. The walls were rippling, cigarette smoke hung in the air like fog. His silhouette constricted my pupils, reminding my brain that there was more than my nerves, reminded my body to breathe. But I choked away from his murky voice and when I rose from the deep the next morning I had regarded him as a fabrication. I met him again in a back alley exchanging in a handshake and he asked my name. His shadow caught me dangling on the edge of a mirror powdered and wide-eyed. He told me to share so I told him my story wrapped in a fumbled cigarette burning too fast He took a drag, he breathed me in then put the ember out on my arm. He told me to shut up. So I did. He told me he liked my voice. He told me he liked my skin and my veins. I said he'd been in a dream and he asked me where I thought we were. He had wings covering his shoulders blades, sleek like oil gushing from his spine toxic and contagious they were soft under my fingers. I would watch them ripple when he slept his skin rolling, waves of muscles responding to the gravity of my body, curving canyons for shadows to bloom. The feathers would curl and snake down, twisting around the knobs in his spine. When we were together, he'd wrap me in an embrace that left us in space, dark and unbearably hot. His tongue was sharp cutting promises into my skin but his kisses were more passionate than his eyes. He told me he loved me with his hands around my neck and when I woke up I regarded him as a lover. He didn't regard me at all. And then he told me he was sorry with a gun to his temple and his eyes over my head I said it back and kissed him but his wings were too thick, spreading, reaching. I left him in a dark room six feet underground. He found my skin playing with bowls and straws, but I wasn't there anymore. He stretched it out and climbed inside, filling me with blood and toxins that awakened my nerves. When I woke up, his fingers were spiders running up my legs and through my hair. His smile was sharp like the center of a crystal, casting shadows and rainbows across my eyes. I regarded him as an angel. When he let me out of my feathered cage I told him again and he said it back, a mockingbird. But his mind was dark, the ink in his veins had burst. It sunk into my skin when he licked me, brushed me black and blue. He could cry oil, thicker than his empathy. If I woke up, I didn't recognize him. I regarded him as a monster and watched a boy with bloody bare shoulders walk away. When I woke up, I was alone shrouded in his wings and memory.
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StatsAuthorMs. StarrMAAboutI enjoy writing. I don't do it enough. I'm unmotivated, uninspired, and have learned that unless you are deemed important or special enough for modern society, your words will generally go unheard. I'.. more..Writing
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