Know it all knew nothing at all

20 or so years, I thought I knew everything;

I knew nothing at all.

I didn't believe love existed; no way, no how, not at all

Then you came along.

I didn't know love was real, Until you came along.

I was blind, stubborn and full of insecurities;

Stuck in my ways.

I thought I knew everything, I knew nothing at all.

I was so sure of myself, of the fact I was unlovable and that was that;

Then you came along.

You looked at me as if I wasnt broken, a write off, a screw up of sorts

And it terrified me, did you know something I didn't?

Its as if you saw things in me I had never been able to see in myself before,

So scared of letting you down..

So stubborn..

I refused to believe that what I felt was real,

I didn't believe you, and for that I am sorry.

I didn't know what love felt like,

Until you came along.

Young, stupid, selfish, I didn't know what love could feel like,

Until it was too late.

I poked and prodded and questioned everything about it,

Looking for answers I already had

I could not fathom the thought that it was possible for you to really care for me

But it was right in front of me.

I took your love for granted, so you took your love away

And it still haunts me to this day.

You filled all the missing pieces of my life with your presence and your energy

And in return I filled your time with doubts and headaches.

I pushed all the boundaries until you too, saw what I believed all along

I wasnt worth your time, I would never be able to make you as happy as you made me

But I was wrong..

I crossed lines I shouldn't have and I have to live with that

Infinite amount of words, but still not enough to let you know how sorry I am

My heart aches for I broke your trust

And all you ever did was help fix me

I let my insecurities get the better of me and I let my poison seep into your heart of gold

I ruined a good thing for no good reason, and for that;

I am sorry.

I thought I knew everything, I know nothing at all.

 

 

 

 

  

 

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[Timewilltell]

I've done the same thing recently and it is one of the worst things. Especially when the person who says they are truly trying and do feel something for you but, it is not believed.