Elementary school fears

Dear first crush.
I don't even remember your last name,
Or remember if I ever knew it in the first place,

A blush,
I'd gush thinking about an embrace,
But being bold,
In a way like that i mean, it's never really been my taste.

I could never face you.
Now it sounds like such a childish thing to do,
But I'd play those silly games,
Line pieces of paper with our names,

And, I don't have a clue what the results were,
But believe me it's true.

I remember your green eyes,
And it comes as no surprise that green are still my favorite,
I know who gave me the obsession,
It was you,
That answer simplifies,

It wasn't all that long ago,
But at the same time, it so, so was,

Remember when being liked was an insult?
And we all felt like the attraction was somehow our fault?
And our worst fear under the sun was getting caught by someone,
So we never admitted, and we constantly fought ,
To make sure that not a single personal thought escaped,
Dressed,
and,
draped in our own feelings,
But we taped our mouths shut,
Avoided eye contact by starting at the ceilings,

I know no one says it, but I'll be blunt.
It all reversed the next year.
But it was too late then, I might have even shed a few tears,
So I'd scarf down chocolate milk and they acted as beers,
Behold,
My first crush,
The strangeness of elementary school fears.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[egg13]

this makes you think, why is love always a tabu? why do we tend to overcomplicate it, even as children?

[Lyric]

Oh, that's cool it made u think, didn't know I was capable

[Chris McKnight]

Very well written on that subject and including regarding that age throughout elementary school. First Crush and everything and more. Hope to see you write more of childhood moments and adventures. Happy ones and sad ones. Best regards. Keep writing!

[Lyric]

thanks chris!

[Roland Petrov]

This is just so well written. It's a subject not taken very seriously at that age, but I bet we all have had one! Love the image of gulping down chocolate milk like they were beers; yes, that first crush foreshadows the ones to come.

[Lyric]

Thank you! I'm happy you enjoyed and yeah, I laughed at my own line cause I really remember doing that