I regret

I am, I wish, I regret, I look.

I am complex, a mess and a lot of defects,
I am blind, ill-timed, with a scattered mind.
I am alone, an unknown, on top of a lonely throne,
I am night, no light, that glow is never in sight.

I wish a glance, one chance, maybe a dance,
I wish nineteen, then seen, wearing t-shirt green.
I wish a touch, a brush, maybe a tight clutch,
I wish a smile, your smile a while, to mind file.

I regret that pause, inner claws, nervous applause.
I regret turning away, losing a day, the price I pay.
I regret seeing you go, too slow, afraid to show,
I regret the loss, now across, with graveyard moss.

I look but never find, an extinct design, your kind.
I look out at sea, your place to be, there you felt free.
I look at my time, a little prime, but now a solo climb,
I look with tears, my life with you in the rear, alone for so many years.




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