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mother's day 2010                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          

i write sentences in the air

hoping you will read them

sure, the dust has gathered on certain memories

but some seem even more polished with time

wooden shoe images 

spin on the blades of windmills

i hear you singing in the language of my childhood

i still have trouble thinking of you in the past tense

you were such a force in my life

and even when the universe was blistered

you always knew what to say

          what to do

to make it all feel okay again

mother's day is almost here

my tenth without you

i just want to find shelter between these lines

wear their meaning till the fit is comfortable

then cleanse myself in a fountain of tears

still embracing one undeniable truth

i miss you mommy!

Reviews

[Paul Bell]

It does seem like the last six weeks have made us stand still. Dates and time have no meaning, but you are right, people in our life, people who have gone but still stay with us daily. This is their time, and ours to say thanks for everything you done for us.

[Lydia Shutter]

You are so right, Paul. Hope all is well with you during this pandemic. Thanks for the review. Lydi**

[Paul Bell]

Just boredom, Lydia, but I'll not complain, many would love to be bored. Hope you're doing well.

[Lydia Shutter]

Oh, I am plenty bored too....after 7 weeks of quarantine, everything in my house is organized, alphabetized, and neat. Now if only my brain would allow me to sleep!

[Paul Bell]

Amazing the jobs we catch up on. Hopefully we'll get back to normal someday.

[Lydia Shutter]

The sooner the better!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

no matter how old we get...she is still "mommy" to us.
so many shades of my feelings about my mom...gone six years now.
this is so beautiful, as she was....and one of your best poems, Lydi...the metaphors are so so good here.
"but some seem even more polished with time
wooden shoe images
spin on the blades of windmills
i hear you singing in the language of my childhood"

these lines are my favorites...
damn, i wish i could write like this...my poems feel shallow in comparison...
j.

[Lydia Shutter]

My friend, I aspire to write as well as you do! Your review means the world to me. Thank you so much. Lydi***

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Your mum was so truly beautiful. A perfect mother as I see from the love & joy that spills over from the picture you shared. I am sorry for your loss and I cannot imagine how much you miss her. Your wonderful, heartfelt lines took me to thoughts of my own mother. Thanks you for this poem.

[Lydia Shutter]

thanks so much, Kat. I appreciate your review. Lydi**

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Welcome dear friend. Happy Mother's Day!

[.]

It's too less to say for a mom, someone who sacrifices her wishes and smiles just for her child and her arms are the safest and most peaceful place in universe. A mother is always a mother and cannot be defined, her greatness is more than words can say.

[Lydia Shutter]

How true, Aurora. Thank you for visiting today. LydI**

[Chris Shaw]

I don't cry easily with words Lydi**, but your tribute to your mum on the tenth mother's day without her really had me dripping tears. Such an emotional and loving write. Beautifully poetic, touched my heart this morning. You write so movingly dear friend. Your posted photograph of mother's day 2010 is a treasure without doubt as was your mum. Talented lady you.

Chris

[Lydia Shutter]

Chris, you have touched me with your review. I am sorry I brought you to tears. I am such an emotional being....my words do reflect that. I appreciate your lovely review so very much. thank you. Lydi**

[AJNJ]

Loved that picure of you with your mother. The love and joy shines through.

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you!

[AJNJ]

Someone said that God cannot be everywhere and so he made mothers. Some lines here touched my core. When you say you still hear her singing and when you say you still have trouble thinking about her in the past tense. Mothers, I feel, are the major contributors of everything positive in our lives and they prepare us for the hardships of the world. No wonder they are so powefully etched into the psyche. Ingrained into the soul. They are our angels and I lost mine at a very young age. Yet the vacuum exists. My cmpliments on such a great tribute to your wonderful mother and to all the mothers in the world.

[Lydia Shutter]

Pestonjee, thank you so much for this wonderful review. Yes, our mothers do stay with us always. I am sorry you lost yours at a young age. I was so fortunate to have mine with me till she was 94! I appreciate your review. Lydi**

[Coyote Poetry]

A wonderful poem for your mother. I was raised-up by a dear Grandmother. I think of her everyday and I use her words. People, we loved and who loved us. Always a part of us. Thank you dear Lydia for sharing your amazing words and your thoughts.
Coyote

[Lydia Shutter]

Yes, John, you are right. Our childhood heroes are with us always. Thank you for the review. Lydi**

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome dear Lydia.

[.]

A very sad poem, dear Lydia. Your yearning flows through your lines very delicately and touches the reader. This will be the strangest Mother's Day on record for me with this virus keeping us out of reach, so even though it is temporary for me, your poem does resonate strongly. Make sure you have a lovely Mother's Day yourself. Lovely writing, here. :))

[Lydia Shutter]

What a lovely review, Jamila. Thank you so much. When you can see your mom again, make sure you hug her tightly and tell her what she means to you! Lydi**

[Lorry]

Your line about having trouble thinking of her in the past tense is one that will resonate loudly for those who have lost Lydi. I think it is simply that they never follow that rule because they are inseperable from ourselves, no matter how much time passes. Even the treasured possessions they leave us never becomeours, but are always described as theirs.
They may take the body, but everything they were to us remains with us.
My Dad passed in 2001 and I still laugh with him, not at his spoonerisms, like finding out on his last year on earth he liked cornflakes, but not with that semi-skilled milk they give you in hospital. Or how hospital side saddles were always limp (side salads) He laughed at them as much as we did and only found out after he died they started when my parents first dated and they intentionally kept them going.
Anyhoo, got a bit tide-stracked there, apologies.
Your words are a beautiful tribute to a loving and loved mother and I'm sure that on mothers days there will be as many smiles at fond memories as their will be tears. It's allowed, they never stop being Mum and we never stop being their kids.

[Lydia Shutter]

Such lovely memories of your dad, Lorry. He, too, had a good sense of humor and he passed that on to you. Never apologize for sharing your life in a review....I love reading your words. thank you so much for the review, Lorry. Lydi**

[Lorry]

You're weclome 😀

[h d e rushin]

tender and blessed are your words Lydia. And a fabulous tribute to the persons who brought us into this world. dana

[Lydia Shutter]

Dana, I am always honored when you review my work. Thank you so much. Lydi**