my sixth without you

this week a full spectrum of emotions

insinuates itself on my horizon

i still have trouble thinking of you in the past tense

you were such a force in my life

          my sound of music on silent days

                   my smile when the world was frowning

                   my vase of perfect tulips in turbulent times

and even when the universe was blistered

you always knew what to say

          what to do

to make it all okay again

but now mother's day is here - my sixth one without you

and i just want to disappear between these lines

wear their meaning till the fit is comfortable

then cleanse myself in a fountain of tears

while embracing one undeniable truth

the love you gave me continues to fuel my ever after

 

i miss you mommy

 

 

 

mother's day 2016

 

 

Reviews

[Einstein Noodle]

oh my! your poem breaks my heart ...what an enviable closeness "My sixth without you" emotes with your mother ...i have never read a tribute to moms so moving .. well done .. so honest and well written every single word ..wow! reminds me not only of my mom but my aunts i was close to, my childrens mom who passed when they were quite young ...and the times at church we all wanted to disappear as accolades were pronounced but nothing said about those lost to us ... i stopped taking my kids to church on mother's day because of that pain ... your loss is poignant .. well done says i! breaks my heart! :(
E.

[Lydia Shutter]

E, you are such an empathetic soul. Thank you for the lovely words and the honest sentiment here. Moms who have passed are still loved. The church service should have realized that and mentioned something. I will always miss my mom....we were so very close. I appreciate your review. Please know I have closed my account with WC for a while. I will be back when it is safer on the site. Lydi**

[Einstein Noodle]

i am sorry to hear you are having trouble here on WC .. seems it does come and go but we have power in reporting and blocking .. i am glad you intend to come back ... dark minds and spoiled hearts have driven more than one wonderful friend away for good :(

[redzone]

((((LYDI))))) you are your mother's daughter, full of love and life and caring... everyone who knows you see her in your eyes and words... as through her you became you...

it's a bitter sweet poem Lydi, one that allows us care and know about you both... holidays, special days bring out the pain of missing and longing, the hurt of not having them hug you or give you advise or even give you a good talking to when we get off track...

as you know my folks are still with me, but I think what I will miss the most about mom is her, "We worry about you Curt", your mom probably said something similar.... you know I could also hear her talking in your poem and how proud she was of your life, even as your were telling us how much you have missed her company... and how much you love her always..

redzone

[DIVYA]

Created by God from His immense love for you, she lives on in your heart forever. I am sure she looking upon you every moment and praying for you. A most touching tribute to the most selfless and noble love ever. The Heaven is graced by her gentle and beautiful presence. Appreciated so very much...

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you, dear Divya. I appreciate your review. Hug your mom on Mother's Day. Lydi**

[MsJewel]

"my vase of perfect tulips in turbulent times"....oh Lydi...your words curl right up in my heart. This is such a beautiful tribute to your mother and the special relationship you shared.

Happy Mother's Day my dear friend.

Julie

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you very much, Julie. May you have a sweet Mother's Day with your daughter. Please know I have closed my account here for a while. I will be back when it is safer. Lydi**

[MsJewel]

safer??? what's up?

[Ardra]

Beautiful one....the love of mother is the purest of all....no one can ever love us like her.....I can't imagine a world without her

[Lydia Shutter]

Hug your mom on Mother's Day and tell her that. Thank you for your review. Lydi***

[Patricia Wedel]

"my vase of perfect tulips in turbulent times" is
a windmill of memories as it turns your days into
peaceful happy ever after. A beautiful tribute of love
for the one who carried your heartbeat always.
truly, Pat

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you so much, Pat. Happy Mother's Day. Lydi**

[Shabeeh Haider]

A very touching and sad write. It seems so unreal when we refer to our parents in past tense.
It is a grief we will always feel.
My heart reaches out to you. I wish you the best.

*shabeeh*.

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you, Shabeeh. Lydi**