I Miss You

written in 2011 after the death of my cousin

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Pistil and stamen
create abundant blossoms
their blatant beauty
nearly clamorous


Sunlight shrinks back
numinous stars spin out of control
in deference to the semiotics
truly impossible to grasp

Something in life seems undone
in these shadows created
and it’s all because
I miss you

Reviews

[David Scott]

Interesting perspective on loss Lydi. You craft the art around the meaning this person held for you in their living days. You frame your mood in your sense of losing a person who had a special place in the galaxy or garden of your heart. I like how you tie yourself to this person still in the poetic expression.
There is a profound sense of a life lived with meaning even in the sense of sorrow.
I will internalize this lesson I think.

[Lydia Shutter]

My cousin and I were like brother and sister. I don't think I will ever get over his death...and it's been four years now. His life and mine were so intertwined, part of me died when he did. Thank you for you kind review. Lydi**

[David Scott]

I believe we will never "get over" our losses her on Earth... We can only accept the reality of it and be thankful for the meaning we found while we were yet privileged to enjoy the bountiful blessing of those we love for always.
However, I believe we will have a reunion and find a more blessed intimacy of spirit with the souls we endure without for now...
Until then, we can enjoy the beginnings of new friendships and heart connections.
I could sense you strong tie to your cousin Lydi. You gave me a distinct impression you lost a true kindred spirit.
It was a pleasure to read and review your fine poem.

[Lydia Shutter]

David, you are a special person.....you are caring and inspirational. Again, thank you.

[David Scott]

Even though I cannot seem to spell worth a darn. ha.
You too, are special to me.

[Lydia Shutter]

We belong to a mutual admiration society! :)

[jennifer little]

nice write keep up the good work i enjoyed reading it

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks. Lydia

[jennifer little]

your welcome

[AprilRN1210]

In my career, we are required to have extensive training on how to help families deal with loss, how to help through the grieving process and general knowledge on the steps and working through each one.. I can tell you from experience--all of that goes OUT the window when dealing with personal loss of our own.. it does feel like things are "coming apart at the seams", unraveling, "undone" "spinning out of control"... there are days when it feels as if reality is something that you will ever fully "grasp" again.. waves of sanity, of emotion, of coherent thought wash over... the way you italicized these lines, made them more affecting and the very last line made me tear up... this was very moving and powerful and beautifully written. :)

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you, April. Unfortunately, I lost four people who were my closest relatives within a 2 year span. Don't think I will ever truly be over it, but writing got me through those times. My cousin and I grew up as brother and sister. I always thought we would grow old together. Such is life. Thank you for your warm response. Lydi**

[AprilRN1210]

you never "get over it".. but does get a little easier.. I lost my brother few weeks ago and I still have those days where breathing is hard.. much less anything else.. ((hugs)) to you girl.. you are more than welcome.

[Lydia Shutter]

I am so sorry your brother passed, April. As you navigate the quicksand of grief, I hope memories comfort you and allow you to smile. Be well. Lydi**

[AprilRN1210]

Thank you, I appreciate your kindness and your friendship :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

a very touching write, Lydi

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you, Jacob. Lydi**