I Wonder

Do you ever wonder?

Artwork by Catherine Abel

I wrote it on the napkin

the poem I knew would be goodbye

I mean what was I to do?

You were late

                   again

and I just couldn’t do it anymore

make believe it was okay for you to waste my time

and trample my emotions

I couldn’t pretend

I heard music in the pregnant pauses

not anymore

so I wrote it on the napkin

then kissed the flip side

and the rest should have been history

but even now I wonder

Reviews

[SPINNING ON that dizzy ..]

I like this from the standpoint of an amazing woman that would wonder what might have been. So often, I think we look back to a romantic moment....that wasn't as romantic as our romantic heart wanted it to be! I relate, I know I have that little pile of napkins and what ifs and coulda beens. You are a great lady.. still.

[Lydia Shutter]

What a wonderful review this is....thank you! Lydi**

[Dhaye]

This is how I could relate in this piece...
It is by human nature that we give up on something when we see that we are like fooling ourselves in wanting for things that only hurt us. But then, as human, we say goodbye, and then regret...then wonder...dream again, hope, wait...then make another try...and say hello once again. Like what they say that "love is lovelier the second time around"...it is because "love is more careful the second time around".

This is a beautiful craft again, Lydi. Kudos!

[Lydia Shutter]

You are very wise, my friend. Thank you for this insightful review. Lydi**

[Dhaye]

You're welcome. =)

[David Scott]

Should have been...
Habits are hard to break. The habit could be a lover or always being late. Still, we kiss these ingrained behaviors goodbye and somehow find ourselves kissing them hello, over and over again...

I like the simplicity of the poem carrying a thought far from simplistic.
Wonderful and insightful writing examining the heart of human behaviors.

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks very much, David. Lydi**

[Frieda P]

Oh we tend to live between those 'what if's and 'if onlys'...I love the imagery here, I can picture the red lipstick stain'd kiss on that napkin vividly. Sometimes it was never meant to be, but we'll never really know, now will we? A stunning reminisce Lyikey.

[Lydia Shutter]

Not for certain, no....and some days that just irks the hell out of me! :) Thanks, Frieda. Lydi**

[Trace]

P.S.
I really enjoyed your poem
Trace

[Lydia Shutter]

:) thanks my friend.

[Trace]

It wasnt my fault I was late.....honest....

Climate change made my car over heat just after I had run over a big tree branch that the wind had blown in the road and flattened my tire, and while was waiting for AAA I ran out of gas.
Then after I got the car going again I realized that daylight savings time had changed but my clocks hadn't.

I thought if I stopped and got you some flowers you might forgive me
but as I was about to pay for them from the flower girl on the corner
a guy ran past and stole my wallet......and car keys........honest. ....

So here I am reading your note and wiping the tears from my eyes with it aønd everyone in the place is laughing at me.
(why would you smear that horrible color of lipstick on the back of that note anyhow?)
the pretty young waitress helped me clean it off my face and after telling her what had happened.
she bought me a drink....... or two.....

And gave me a ride home......
in the morning........

Sorry I was late......
Trace.

[Lydia Shutter]

OMG....laughing here....you really took my words and ran with them, Trace. Loved this! Lydi**

[Trace]

My monday morning ramblings are almost as fun as your Friday night flirts.
Trace.

[Linda alexander]

Many will relate this poem for sure, great write, wondering mentioned in the poem is like a routine and ever unraveling mystery too, so we will leave some of it to time to answer

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you for stopping by, Linda. Lydi**

[Linda alexander]

You most welcome, take care

[Rita L. Sev]

A tangible tale, Lydi - those moments never leave us, even when we say goodbye...

[Lydia Shutter]

You know it, Rita. Thanks for the review. Hope all is well with you. Lydi**

[MsJewel]

I think many can relate to this poem Lydi. I know I can...
making a decision and years later...wondering if it was the right one...wondering what if....

Beautiful poetry my friend. It's so wonderful to read you!

:) Julie

[Lydia Shutter]

Thanks so much, Julie. Have a good day. Lydi**

[Anas Reyad]

truly honest and there are some words if you can just live with it you will be moved just like me thank you for those nice words

[Lydia Shutter]

Thank you. Lydi*

[redzone]

Wondering about what ifs, it's something we all do from time to time I think especially concerning love, but other things as well ..what if had waited? Where is he /she now? "I heard music in the pregnant pauses " a great line Lydi, packed full of emotional eddies and whirlwinds of 'what ifs '.. I have explored these eddies myself Lydi many times ... beautiful poetry Lydi. And nice!!!
~~redzone

[Lydia Shutter]

I think it is human nature to question one's decisions.....and we are, if nothing else, human! :) Thanks so much, Curt. Lydi**