Slots

They say go big or go home

So, I'm betting my paycheck baby

She likes it

The exhilarating rush of risking it all

And the insufferable desolation 

that follows the realization we lost the rent money

She sits cross legged

half occupied on the game

more focused on downing another glass of pink moscato

leaving red lipstick stains on the glass rim

hoping they will never come off

I sit opposite of her

biting my lips

the edges of my nails caked with dried blood

I do NOT like it

The exhilarating rush of risking it all

and the realization she won over me again

I don't love her

Or need her

Or simply want her in any form

But I have her

And she has me, although she wont admit it

Her small victories are what keeps her

from taking over once and for all

So I let her win from time to time

I suck it up

And live with a month of Ramen noodles and sour milk

Reviews

[PoetbearII]

I like the flow and feeling.Some parts seem like lyrics.
Great ending.
Love to see a visual with it.

[Collyn]

This is really confusing to me... But it's interesting. I'm not sure if you were going for funny? Serious? Romantic? Creepy? It's kind of all of that in one. My favorite is the last stanza hahaha cuz I have no clue what it means lol.

[Luxe]

This is a continuation of other poems involving a character by the name of Luxe, also my domain name. She's described as the "other side of me" being the negative aspects that I try to control. Its confusing to anyone who hasn't read the other poems involving her. Basically the two characters are the same person throughout this poem. The person in this poem, not necessarily myself, is very contradictory and can not make up her mind about where her morals stand.

[Collyn]

Ohhhh I see. I will have to read your other poems!

[Luxe]

Thank you so much!