The Great Pretender

I told the first one I loved him
It was the lie of the year 
Though I thought I meant it
In a great twist
With a cracked mirrored view at my face
I was left abandoned and I found my own pride
I wrecked havoc and went on a battle
Wounding myself with my own words
Left on the empty battlefield
Wrapped in white straps
Running away from the wardens


The second one
Cherished him for days
He pulled the shards from my own heart
Only for me to push them into his
My heart hates me for it
And so does he
The day he forgives me might be the day I feel free

The third, and last
Wasn't supposed to happen
My emotions rebelled against the rest of me
Deciding to take charge
But like all great escapades
It turned into an epic battle
With me fighting me, and me fighting his heart
No one won
No great parties were had
No applauding from the crowd
He drowned
I was sleepwalking
And held him underwater

There is no fourth, who knows if there will ever be
I pity him already for wanting to be near me
Something inside of me wants him to stay away
In the shadows
Away in a distant land
Though I want to see his face
Know if he can handle the demons latched to my skin
And the darkness in my head
I want to feel warmth under my skin
And peace in my heart