Shying Away

I wrote this because I feel very angry, ignored, overlooked, and laughed at.

"Girl? Girl? Excuse me, girl?"

Calls a boy who has known me for years,

Is this who I have become?,

When did this all happen?

 

When did I start shying away,

From the simplest things?,

Such as speaking up in class,

Or defending myself against the "it" girls.

 

You know me, I am a powerhouse,

I fight for what I believe in,

Although the fighting is inside,

And never shown to the world.

 

I have so many goals and hopes,

That nobody knows,

Do the kids at school know me,

As anything other than "the quiet Gabby"?

 

When did I become a doormat,

For the world to wipe their scum on?,

When did I become a swinging door,

That people can just past through?

 

Why can't I come out of my shell,

That I built around myself,

To shield my mind,

To hide my soul?

 

"She's shy," says my mother,

To all we meet,

Is this the norm,

For a girl of fifteen?

 

Why can't I be outgoing,

And flirt with cute boys,

And gossip with the girls,

That I have never met?

 

Maybe what I should ask,

Is can I come out of this?

Can I be my own person?,

And not be afraid of rejection?

 

I sure hope so,

Because high school is almost over,

And nobody will ever know,

The real Gabrielle.

 

 

Reviews

[Samuel Dickens]

Fear of rejection is something that most of us have, Gabby. I have suffered from it for most of my life, in fact, but have learned that I must risk it to get through life. I expect that you will become much braver and outspoken before long. Just remember that "the crowd" is often wrong and thier opinions are worthless. Stand your ground, believe in yourself and don't let others drag you down.

[Victoria Harlequin]

Wow, as I reading this I felt deja vu. This is something that I would write because everything that you described in this is... well ME! And that was a little weird, but that's the good thing about this. I can relate! I truly love this poem :] I can feel the emotion and this is really raw which is also something I love about poetry. The rawer the better, haha. This is amazing, brilliant!

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This is so raw and deep, it felt like as if you left your heart to carve all these words.
This is really so true and vivid!
Great work ::)

[BluesForTheRisingSun]

I love this, because I can relate to it. Its like the saying "high school never ends" meaning that what you present yourself as in highschool, is what you'll be remembered for. If, like in my case, you'll be remembered at all. It was a reflective poem on ambitions and confidence, and I thought it was excellent. Great write!

[Jwana Creer Yeshua]

Dear Gabby,

You are young my friend. Life is just starting for you. There are so many things that I wish I would have done when I was in high school. I was the same way back when I in high school. You might be scared that people are going to make fun of you. To tell you the truth of the matter is that if they do that than they are not a friend or anyone that I would hang around with. You may feel like a door mat but open up the door and let the Gabby that I know from personal experience out. She is in there just give it time. Start small and soon you will not have this feeling of angry, ignored, overlooked, and laughed. If you would like help just talk to me my door is always open. Don't shy away people want to help other people. I know I do. Nice work by the way you expressed yourself wonderfully in this peice. Keep up the good work.

Humbly,
Jwana Creer Yeshua

[Steve]

'When did I become a swinging door,
That people can just past through?'

You write so well of the deepest feelings that reside within all of us that have known what you have gone through. This is a great piece, articulate, perfectly structured and written, thankyou! :)