Venom

Insecurities and traumas from the past, especially ones done by others who were close to you, can leave scars that are hard to heal and make moving forward in love difficult.

So much love I wish to give,
But it's become so hard.
The heart that beats inside my chest,
Is hurt, battered and scarred.

It's been years, so many years,
since I've felt loves thrill.
But now all of it that remains,
is a void too big to fill.

I want to love, I truly do,
But it all seems in vain.
For every kindness that I give,
is poisoned by pain.

It twists me so, in to a man,
that deep down I'm not.
But who I was has been malformed,
Love I feel will surely rot.

On hands I've held, in hopes of change,
I've bled and I cried.
But every time, I hurt their efforts,
Can I change who I am inside?

Within me stirs a well of poison,
A dark venom in my core.
With every heart I break in fear,
I accept my fate much more.

Even so, I can't go on,
with this venomous charade.
I want to heal my wounded heart,
Mend the damage that's been made.

I face my fears within my dreams,
many sleepless nights alone.
Am I really worth salvation,
Or shall I turn to stone?

I haven't written many songs,
in years that have passed.
This is my first, just like this love,
I pray that it will last.

I weave my souls string,
within the verses of this song.
This time it's right, this time I'll fight,
For this I feel, I am not wrong.