Failure

Live the life you want, not the life other want you to live.

I feel so often that i failed,
Like all my efforts were in vain.
By my self i've been betrayed,
Lost the desire to try again.

Others think i have not fought,
For what i want to be.
But they give no tought,
What burden is upon me.

Days and nights i've spent alone,
In darkness of my own.
Hating my self for what i am,
For all my failure that i am known.

Tho still i go on, still i struggle,
To change the way im seen.
Working harder on my self,
To be better then i have been.

But it takes its toll upon me,
Breaks my spirit and tears my mind.
Do they not see all of my efforts?
If that is so, then they are blind.

My will has shattered,
I am too tired,
Of this eternal war.
I cant go on,
I did my best.
And i cannot do more.

All this time i tried and tried,
To please everyone i could.
But i have failed to realise,
Who satisfied should be.
I wasted time on other people,
When i should have on me.