Ivory Wolves

For Chris... my boyfriend.the man who said that I was gorgeous and for the first time in my life I believed it.

The world speaks condemning moments of faith

Moments of past wasted for solutions long gone

Attempting to speak though words are missing

Long memories drawn in the fragments of a crayon

Withheld for so long, to deny the emotions welling inside

A canyon wall laughed at the prey saying it was worthless

Girl grown too fast, yet heart withheld, drowning in thirst

She dances on a stage, a smile in place, the perfect actress

Mask of silence for the crowd, yet one audience member made her�"

Pause

 

He stands watching viewing people one by one as they file by

Exchanging pleasantries, yet removed from the regular masses

Understanding a portion of his pain, its written into the essence of him

Yet longing to see the story underneath, so of the play she pauses

Conversations so bold, replayed over in a mind dwelling in curiosity

Longing to express, yet fearing the rejection so inevitably etched

Similarities so wondrous, she smiles for real when he speaks

View of the wonder longing to touch, yet knowing denials are echoed

Yet courage takes hold, fear pushed aside and words are for once�"

Spoken

 

Beauty of a moment informed of the return of such affection

Shock of the ages a monster found she could be born alive

Conversations take hold, replayed over in her mind; suicide pushed back

Emotions of present analyzed alongside past realizing that the future did arrive

Wonder found within another, psychotic proclaimed yet perfect rearranged

His perfection imperfect by design, the missing piece of her forgotten puzzle

Confusion by his actions none make sense, affection a new introduction in life

Its seems like a trick a practical joke labeled out like another fable

Imagination rampant in dismal; yet with a kiss he took the words right out of her�"

Mouth

 

Learning aspects of a figure that is beside, dreading the time apart

Never enough time, because she wants to know him inside and out

Yet knowing that hes her puzzle, she takes pleasure in the small pieces aligned

All of her actions so precarious, set off balance by that internal doubt

Yet refraining from running she drops the walls; reveals the girl underneath

Unsure of how to express, shes new to so many things like holding hands

It would be sad, yet through him she rejoices; the man pure through fire

Hes tender yet protective, the lion and deer, a psycho with a heart of no demands

A mixture of two worlds, like her own, she leans against him; for once�"

Trusting

Eyes of oceans tides pull her in yet give her choices

Understanding and intelligence in one handsome man

Hes her dream, the wish upon a star; though shes scared to fall

One hand she already has, yet thought of admitting results in deadpan

So silence she gives, yet hands him the keys to doors never dusted

Banter and intelligence, affection and trust; she exposes her madness

Insanity in line hand in hand with his, reflections of the other

Compressed into a file, his smile, his life is her true bonus

Nothing compares, unable to say merely that she of him does like; realizing maybe its�"

Love.

 

In my past Ive fallen for people, Ive seen someone and fallen for them Ive put up with untold pain from them and received nothing back. I never thought I would find someone who would see the scars, shrug and move on, someone who understand that there are stories behind the scars. That self destruction isn’t something I want but that its part of me, someone who wants to help me survive. This person, has managed to get me to be ME around him, no masks, sure there is hesitancy, but that’s better than me running. I don’t want to run from him, it seems like a dream, but this is a dream I don’t want to end. He has keys I didn’t have to give him, he sees past the lies, past my bullshit, to see me, and its scary that I cant hide, but wonderful too. Chris, I think Im falling in love, I wont admit it to your face yet, because I just cant, but I am. Im falling for you, and that scares me completely. But for once, Im not going to run. Im here to fight because having you in my life, has given me a renewed hope. Thank you, for giving me myself back thank you for hugging me, thank you for you merely being you.

Reviews

[A.E. Surdam]

Wow, everything in it reminds me of everyday experiences I have sought, seen, heard, felt and did. Certain things come across me and make an impression, imprinting in my mind.

My favorite line is "Shock of the ages a monster found she could be born alive"
It is very beautiful and an excellent choice of words.

[Sanctuary Dementia]

Thank you, thank you all, it means alot

[DreyaArt]

Beautiful,
I understand the beginning of this poem completely I am happy for you that you understand the end. :)

[Fabric Pulse]

Adorable. I hope you get to be the happy ending Cinderella. =)