Old Friend

Hello old friend. Well your not exactly a friend, but for some reason I treat you like one sometimes. Even though you treat me like a worthless person. I keep coming back to you over and over because you are so embedded into my being. So I treat you like your my only 'friend' when in fact you most definitely are not. I just keep falling into the tricks and traps you have laid out through the years, and now I can't get rid of you like a bad case of herpes. I guess you could call me a sinner or sorts. I make mistakes, I get a lot wrong but not everything is my fault and beating my up over it won't help me any(although I can't help it). 

 

Here is my issue with you: you are an extremist. One thing crosses my mind and you won't let me forget it. I say or do one thing even remotely wrong and them BAM, mind is like the Mekong river. I have one small argument and you tell me that they hate me or that they are going to leave me for someone better. I get a little overwhelmed and you tell me to give up. 

 

The reality is, is that your a lieing sack of s**t, but you believe your right, and I can't help but to give into you each and everytime. You have dug yourself to the core of my being, and made yourself at home there. Whether I like it or not, you are a part of me now. Forever and always. You make sleeping impossible, making and trusting new friends incredibly difficult, and holding my self-worth exhausting. 

I just wish you would go away.

 

-An old friend