Cry Alone

True friends are able to see past the surface level to what is really bothering you. This poem is about expressing your sadness bare but still feeling like your just being covered up anyway.

Sometimes I cry alone.

Not because I want to be sad or on my own.

There is no one around to see my tears.

And even if they did, could they see the misery gathered throughout the years?

No, I am not crying to make you feel sad.

I am crying because I feel bad.

Yet when all I want is to be comforted,

people come my way only for them and me to be discomforted.

Yes, I do want your advice,

but not at the expense of just feeling nice.

No, it is not my intention for you to feel depressed,

just don’t put on a fake smile like all the rest.

If you were to see me through I’d almost rather you don’t,

Would you feel empathy like those others won’t?

If all you want is to make me feel better, so you feel better about yourself,

you might as well tell me to put my feelings up on a shelf.

Yes, I cry and my tears I do hide,

because when you see me, in you I cannot confide.

It hurts more to be put in your so called “friend” zone,

when you find me crying on my own.

Is that enough for you just to say you were there,

when really, you feel nothing and just want to be square.

No don’t try to tell me I’m alright,

when you’re not there as I cry in the night.

Sometimes I cry alone because I don’t want you to judge,

to get off your high horse or your nice clothes to smudge.

You know you don’t get it and you never could,

my friend you are not, don’t kid yourself as you would.

Cause what if I told you these tears I cry in front of you,

were drenched in vain because I cried for you.

My "friend", can’t you see I don’t want your advice and all things nice,

I want you to see how you ignore me once, twice, thrice.

My friend these tears I cried were not so you could tell me I’m alright.

These tears were cried so you might see how everything is not alright.

So please don’t make it worse by your fake smile,

When if you really wanted to help you might cry with me every once in a while.

So indeed, if you ever do see me crying alone,

just know, I’d rather you know why or who I may really be crying for before you bring yourself into my “friend” zone.

So don’t blame me for getting angry at you,

when your comforting words are meaningless too.

Because to be called my friend to me is truly something special,

but if you already assume you are one, then you could never truly be on my level.

I laid my sorrow bare for you to see,

the direction you have chosen is what had caused me such misery.

I wanted you to see how I cared as you were leaving me for a relationship I knew would make you suffer,

every tear because that charm was inwardly evil and heartache you would endure yet your friendship was still my treasure.

So even as we part ways,

in my heart remains the love of times we shared together those days.

Yet even still a friend you can always find in me if you ever find yourself truly hurt and need a shoulder to cry on,

just because your choice hurt me for you doesn't mean I won't stay a friend for you to carry on. 

I am not just here to help you go along to get along,

cause in my eyes your worth more than that and so strong.

My friend I am here for you to lay it bared,

in confiding in me you never have to scared.

I'll never cover up or make light of your situation or judge you harshly,

just talk to me I am listening, you and me.

When you hurt I hurt this I can see,

my friend please just talk to me truthfully.