Time Piece

I wish my heart were a clock

My body a time piece

I could be taken to a shop

Repaired in a day

The sprockets and gadgets that don't turn like they should

Polished, replaced, promised as good as new

My body would be so shiny and working


Able to carry, and grow something precious and new

No more would I need to ponder and wonder

Why I was given the tools

But not the ability to do what it was intended to do


And yet be teased, viciously so

Walking in a store, working as I do, I see new Mommys

And then on the news, someone's destroyed something so precious

I wonder what they'd do

To be told, you can never make another

To be told, your pieces don't work

Would they discard the life, they so effortlessly made

If they knew they couldn't create anymore?

Tiny little fingers, count the little toes

I will never do it with one of my own

I've done it with neices, and nephews alike

Friends have their own little brood

There's the twins, known as Hailey and Amanda

Emily, I was in the delivery room...


Lydia, so smart, she's only three

And I can't help to be envious you see

All three Mommys, felt thier little one inside

They got to feel them grow

The kicking, pressing on their bladder, and praying for the day they'd come out

At this point, if you said, eternally pregnant, I'd be half tempted

Even with the morning sickness

Its a foolish thought, I know


I try not to be bitter, solem, or angry

I know everything happens for a reason

I just don't understand what my reason is

Is it really that much to ask?

To hold something so little, that is a part of you

And of course, Daddy too

But, what isn't for me, I'll deal with accordingly

And remember to be grateful for all that I have

To do anything less, like sit here and ponder

Isn't good for my own fragile heart.


It makes me want, and wish, and almost fall apart

And there's isn't a reason to let that start

Still I wonder, if I wouldn't mind

Having a body like a Timex

Take me to the clock shop

Replace my broken heart

Send me back, so shiny and new....