What Can I Do?

Wrote this after mine and his big fight... It left me feeling a little trapped.

Normally Im so strong

Chinning it up and moving on

Normally I catch myself before I fall

Brushing it off and moving on

Normally nothing ever scared me

Bolding it up and moving on

Normally I never cried

Wiping my eyes and moving on

 

Now I am slowly breaking

I find myself constantly thinking

How much more can I take?

Before it sends me to my grave.

Reminding myself of loving you

And forgiving all the cruel things that you do

Making up excuses to tell myself at night

Telling myself everything will be alright

 

I need help to depart

Im slowly falling apart

Strength has vanished from me

Courage no longer stands beside me

I have fallen down

Face first in the ground

Fear is what I feel

Taking away all my will

Crying myself to sleep

I cant get away I am in to deep

 

Im suffocating in agony

Constantly going through pain

Have I lost my mind

Accepting your apologies all the time

What to do?

What to do?

What to do?

I just can not leave you

What to do?

What to do?

What to do?

I can not say we are through

Oh, what do I do!?

I just dont know

I am lost and confused

What.. What can I do?

Author's Note

A Poem after I fight that left me helpless and feeling trapped and over all depressed. I wrote it after it happened, staying up all night writing and crying until I fell asleep. Hope you enjoy it, sorry if there is any grammar problems, I can not help that.