Why did you want to hurt me

practicing monologue writing for BTEC drama :D xxxxx

I just don't know anymore. I just don't. My head tells me one thing, my heart tells me another... so which one do I listen to? I miss the old days when we used to be so close and friends. But then we got together and things got confusing and now we pretend we don't know each other. I hate it how I keep dreaming about you and my mind tells me that I don't like you anymore...  but my heart tells me I might, I don't know which one to listen to. It's hard when you don't know where you stand, and all you want is for it to all go back. What do you do when it looks positive, but you still don't know where you are? Who you are? Just because I can sit and laugh and smile all day that doesn't mean I'm OK. It's just that I'm good at hiding my feelings from you and everyone else. There's 2 things clear up... YES I AM SINGLE! Do I want to be? NO. Is there someone I want to be with? YES. Is that working out right now, doesn't seem like it! He just seems to keep braking my heart over and over and over again! Things might not be the same but somehow the feelings still remain. I just wish my heart and my mind would get together and finally agree on something! Why is it that even though we know we're gonna get hurt in the end, we still fall for them anyway? I loved you, you loved me. What went wrong? Oh, that's right. HER. You just had to run off with that witch didn't you? Congratulations! You LOST me! But I bet you don't even care. I bet you didn't even give me a second thought. I did not realise what it would be like loosing the best thing in my life until I lost you. You said you loved me and would do anything to be with me forever... But then you do this to me. Why? It's the only question I have. Why did you want to hurt me? No matter how I wish it, the clock will never turn back... No matter how I wish it, the pain will never go away... What's done is done, never to be undone. And it's all YOUR fault!

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