She & Her

She is amazing

She is so fascinating, so beautiful. I want to get to know every last piece of her.

but she won't let me.

She makes me feel so good, yet so bad.

I want her to be interested in me, but she doesn't.

I want to hug her, hold her hand, and kiss her forehead. but she won't let me into her life.

I want to have a deep conversation with her, but it seems she counts down the seconds to when I'm gone.

She is my favorite person, but I am not hers.

She makes me smile without provocation, but I'm not the person she puts on a smile for.

When I make her laugh, I feel I can accomplish anything. When I fail, I feel like a great annoyance, a burden. 

Something has happened to me ever since I met her. She has lifted me out of hopelessness, she has also crushed me. I realize that's my own doing. 

I only wish for the best for her. She is the best person I know, the person I want in my life the most. She just doesn't want me in hers. All of that is okay though, as long as she is happy...