Doubt

This is about my struggles through belief in myself and in my life.

Personally I worry way to much

How I look

What I do

How I respond

Many times it tears me apart piece by piece

I love fantasies

They give me joy and hope

But my life is based around them too much

One thing that doesn't follow the story line and I am crushed

Many people laugh

I try to control my pain and my hurt

Through trying to control every little tiny motion

Many times I let my fear devour my faith

I am too worried that when one little thing happens

Everything else will float away with my happiness

I am told day in and day out that I can't control it and that's the fun

But it's not

For me I have been to scarred to believe that easily

My strength of family ad love

has brought to my victory

My scared places are where I am most controlling

My happy places are where I let life take it's toll

I was silly to think that my brain trying to control my issues

Was me being a terrible lier and terror

My faith and love guided me

Without out it

The question?

What would I be?

 

Reviews

[Justin Tobey]

I displayed your doubts and fears very well in this poem/story. I could really feel the emotion, and it's good to get those bad feelings out in writing. I was very angry a few days ago, and it helped me to write it, too. Apart from some minor grammar problems, the piece is very good! I hope you're feeling better, Kayla. : )

[Emily B]

One day you will believe in things you cannot hold. . .

You've really poured your heart into this. Great job.

[sabrina]

I love your poem, just letting everything out and how you wrote it helps me picture it more easily. Great job!

[FuMiko]

A lot of the time, writing a poem is like taking a snap shot of the moment, but poetry is deeper than any picture could be. Because you can control it more. Blur out just a little bit, or darken it, to hide some details, so that people's eyes can pass over in ignorance of what is really there. If this were a photograph all of the edges would be just a little blurred, and then sharpened so that the details are there.
But not to detailed.
Really good job, I can't wait to read more of your work!

[Dawn]

I love the way you let your feelings flow and show the way you see things...good work!!

[The Autumn Faerie]

Believe it a not, you aren't alone.

One of my friends once said to me:
"Without my faith, I don't know who I would be."

It's something that everyone experiences, whether others realize it or not.