Against myself

A G A I N S T    M Y S E L F.

 

I suffer too much to stay

Confide too much in delay

It’s consuming, mostly glooming

That I’d rather be away

It’s depressing

That I’m stressing, sometimes pressing to decay

I don’t get why I’m expressing, at times confessing my dismay

Hoping I’ll be okay

Coping for your display

There isn’t blessing, or addressing that could save my heart today

Hinting to get away

Sprinting from whom I portray

While still guessing and contesting if I’ll ever find my way

Detesting and protesting if I even still belong

Suggesting, but done testing if my sanity is strong

 

 

-Aja

July 07, 2017

Reviews

[Fabio_Cassilias]

love this! it's beautiful.

[Alessander]

Love the rhythm.

It has an Edgar Allen Poe lyric quality to it, but almost rap style.

"Sprinting from whom I display"

fav line.

We all wear masks, and we we demask ourselves, sometimes we don't like what stares back.

[Mr.Write]

Like the layout of the poem and it's content as well. I have to say though your poems seem to carry the same themes and portray the same story: depression and a person slowly slipping away. Not sure why this is.

"Coping for your display"-this line puzzles me as well.

Also could you leave a review on my chapters, so far I haven't gotten a single review from you. This site is all about reciprocation and if we don't take the time to let someone know whether or not their writing is good then what's the point of even being on this site? And to be quite honest the site is looking pretty inactive.

[Lovelykittenface]

thank you for the review and that just seems to be my mood as of late.

coping for your display is
basically my way of saying I act okay for you to see its the way I could explain how it feels that I cant truly express how I feel on the inside

Also I would love to read your stuff, I just haven't had the time as I work fulltime throughout the week and had a bad day yesterday ... I promise to sit down and read yours first, I'm seeing its pretty inactive so I'm going to try and review a lot of people's to try and encourage them to review others and mine


thank you again :)

[Mr.Write]

"coping for your display is
basically my way of saying I act okay for you to see its the way I could explain how it feels that I cant truly express how I feel on the inside."

I see.

"just seems to be my mood as of late."

Sorry to hear that. Life can be trying sometimes but I find that if you take it one day at a time and do just enough to end the day with your pride intact or at least without feeling like you messed up, then things tend to go more smoothly. Just use what you love to help lift your spirits up whenever something bad comes around, and learn to make fun of yourself because often times we take ourselves way too seriously. If you do that then you might find that things aren't as bad as they seem.