heading nowhere

I never felt so detached from you
there's times I thought we wouldn't make it
But the distance is a pill, and it's hard for me to take it
but I swallow it whole, cause it's hard for me to break it
I never thought that I'd leave but it's wrong for me to fake it
yeah it's hard ...
because I know you wanna fix it
but when my feelings started pouring
they were boring so you mix it
so now I'm snoring
sleeping on you , yes I'm still ignoring
I don't mean it
but the scenes we made are messes that are forming
so they're swarming , the feelings now are always less than warming
with my tears running long you'd think my message was informing
am I wrong ?
for breaking down and never feeling strong
do I belong ?
ain't that the question right before I'm gone
do I stay
I never asked this question all along
until today ... I figured it was pointless to prolong
the decay ...
I never thought I'd want to walk away
but now I'm running ... not to you
but out of things to say
and it's cunning ... back then I thought I'd never see the day
when I'm without you ... but now I'm thinking maybe it's okay
I still don't doubt you
yes everyone knows everything about you
I feel your anger ... even though you think it's just throughout you
and I see it
you can't hide from me so why don't you just be it
have you tried ? are you scared that I'm just too soft to receive it
it's implied deep inside And yes I do believe it ...
please release it
the pace we're at I hope you don't increase it .

- Aja🖤
02-24-2017