If You Really Knew Me.

i tried starting this 3 times already and couldnt think of anything. then i really thought about this.

If you really knew me you would know that im constantly critizing myself. I tell myself i look hideous and other people say i look fine. I listen to my own thoughts more than what other people tell me. If you really knew me you would know that im my worse enemy. I focus more on my imperfections than I focus on what I like about myself. If you really knew me you would know that im not perfect nor will i ever be. I am not comfortable with my body. I have gone through and sometimes still go through anorexia relapses. I workout as much as I can to make myself feel better. If you really knew me you would know that I have been made fun of since kindergarten. I have never felt that weightless feeling that most people feel when they are little. I have never had a carefree day. If you really knew me you would know that I'm afraid of rejection. I am afraid of not fitting in, afraid of not being loed, and afraid of having my heart broken. If you really knew me you would know I'm jsut a girl trying to survive in this ordinary world.

Reviews

[~Lizzy♬]

You are beautiful! No one, not even yourself, can tell you that you are ugly. God made you the way you are and that means you are very special to everyone in this world. :)

[JaceJordd]

hah thankyouu guys(:

[Kirbetsy]

You ARE beautiful Jaycie! Never let anyone tell you otherwise, especially not yourself! *hugs* :D

[Gianna Perry]

be happy, beautiful! mwah! :D

[JaceJordd]

thankyouu(: that means alot! hugs(:

[Rosalyn Marie]

well.. now we know i guess :) but seriously, this must really suck... i dont know what you're going through but just keep your chin up and ignore people because as long as you don't stoop to their level you're a better persn than them. as long as you know that, then you should be fine and i know this is totally chiche but it really does count whats on the inside more than appearance :) hugs