Dead Inside

Inspired by various works from the band Slipknot.

I've killed myself every night for weeks

Destroying my insides until they are dark and bleak

Stabbing any new feeling that comes my way

So it cannot come to hurt me another day

I am dead inside, it would appear so

I no longer care if my life stays or goes

It is complete death which I longer

It is the things that kill me that make me stronger

It's almost impossible to let you go day by day

So I'll just dream all of our memories away

I did love you, and I tried to let it show

Yet you eluded me, so it took the death of hope to let you go

Now, I simply cannot love again

Although those feelings do come back every now and then

I've become so good at smothering them, I think you'd be proud!

I am able to leave my heart on the cold ground

The temptation to pick it up is so strong

But I know if I do, then my mind will be gone

I don't want to be this, someone who kills all they feel

And doesn't wish to know which dreams are or arn't real

But I wont let you build up inside of me

So dead inside is all I will ever be.