Who Is My Friend?A Poem by LightSuicidal thoughts are one of the worst things to legitimately go through. And, often enough, people will walk away. Unless you ask for them to stay. That was my mistake. I never asked.
With those promises broken
Much like my heart I gotta end the pain now And pray it wont restart I know the numbness wont come No matter how many years The pain is more terrorizing Than any of my fears And I can't escape it Because it is following me around Inside this well of darkness Where no hope can be found And people tell me to look up! It's so much easier for them to say They arn't so broken That you can't see which way Is up, down, left, or right God damn, it's confusing! No matter which way I go I know I will always end up loosing! That's it! I'm done! I've been shattered into pieces! I'm finished, demolished! This life has no more reasons To stay alive anymore No one would cry My "friends"? Sure they care But apparently, not enough to try Which one of you texted? Which one made sure? I wasn't spinning down this tunnel So fast my vision blurred I can't see straight anymore I feel like my head hit the floor And NO ONE came to my side To stop me from enduring more Of this pain inside I feel so alone My heart feels so cold It must have turned to stone. But it still beats on Stone cold blood through my veins More tears seem to fall from my eyes Than the sky when it rains And it's pouring inside my mind There is never sun, just rain And what makes it even worse Is that no one tried to take the pain Away And ya sure You all asked "are you okay?" "Need a hug? I'm sorry" LIKE IT WAS A F*CKING GAME And I said "I'm fine, I'll get better someday" So you said okay And then walked away Who stayed behind? And made sure I wasn't lying? Isn't that what friends do? To MAKE SURE their friends ain't dying? To stay? To say hey? "You ain't doing okay. I know you too well We should hang later today!" Do none of you know me well enough? I wouldn't be surprised I can see it in that unfocused Gaze in your eyes Of short, genuine concern For my well being Then say "he will get better It is a temporary feeling." Well it don't feel that way And I need someone now I try to ask people But I can't figure out how So I accept that you will all walk away Shut my eyes, fight back this pain Build up walls for the suffering Break them down when I'm alone so I don't feel the shame So I guess I will go on Suck it up, keep up this trick And if by chance I'm gone tomorrow Well... I'm sorry to my loved ones who read this.
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2 Reviews Added on July 3, 2013 Last Updated on July 3, 2013 Tags: Suicide, Heartbreak, Lost love, Pain, Alone, heartache, breakup, depressed, depression, suicidal |