The End

She's done. This is it. She is finally ending it. Goodbye.

 

Oktobar Kincaid lay on her bed, staring at the ceiling replaying today’s events in her head. Her eyes glazed with tears and her breathing still shaking. She looked down at her arm. It was still bleeding, and her vision was beginning to get blurry. She isn’t even completely sure how many times she brought that razor across her arm. She left arm was completely covered in blood and cuts and old scars.

            She had stopped, she had completely stopped self-harming over a year ago. But after what happened, she just… Broke… She couldn’t take it, and she gave into the urge and she cut… And cut… And cut… She just wanted to feel numb…

            She really didn’t think she was going to be able to live after this. How could she? Her best friend… Had hurt her…

            She had a thought. It was the greatest plan… But it just kept crossing her mind…She could just end it. All of it. Her entire life. It’s not like anyone would care. No one would even notice. She could just… Take her blade to her both of her wrist… And just… Bleed out… It’s not like anyone would miss her or anything…Carson was all she had left…

            She thought back to what happened… She remembered it exactly…

     She had heard a knock on the front door, and quickly went down stairs to the door. She cracked it, and looked outside. It was Carson, her boyfriend.

            She opened the door, and ran to him, wrapping her arms around his neck. He put his arms securely around her, making her feel safe and sound. She put her face in the crease of his neck, feeling his body heat against her face.

            “I love you.” She mumbled, closing her eyes against him.
            “I love you, too.” He reassured her.

            She took a step back nervously, he was acting… Different… She couldn’t explain the feeling, but… She really didn’t like it…

            “Is something wrong?” She questioned, trying to keep her voice even.

            He took a step towards her, “No,” He said,“Why do you think something is wrong?” She noticed his voice was slightly slurring.

            She took a step back, trying to stay away from him. “What’s wrong, Tori?” He said, getting so close to her that she could feel his breath on her face.

            “Carson, stop, you’re scaring me…” She said her voice shaking.
            “Stop what?” He said, tracing her jawline.

            Her heart was pounding in her chest and she thought her heart was going to come through her rib cage. She felt a tear roll down her face, and ran into the house.

            He ran after her. He grabbed her arm, and spun her around, shoving her against the front door. She tried to hit him, but he grabbed both of her arms and pinned them above her head.

            The girl was crying now, she had just pretty much begged him to not do this to her…

            She held back a scream when he forced his lips against hers, causing her teeth to cut her lower lip. She tried to fight against him, and he hit her across the face, causing her to whimper and stop fighting.

            “Why are you f*****g doing this?” She questioned, her voice cracking because of the tears.
            He ran his hand up her shirt, tracing the outline of her bra, making her fight against him and cry harder. Then he pulled her shirt off, and unfastened her bra.

            She was hyperventilating, bawling, begging him to stop this before he really hurt her…

            His hands went down to her jeans, and he unbuttoned them…

“Carson, please stop, please don’t do this to me… Please…” She pleaded, barely able to speak because of the crying.

He laughed a really cruel laugh, and grinned at her…

 

She could remember exactly how it happened. Everything he did to her. Everything he said to her. The pain that he put her through. She had taken a shower but she was still bleeding bad…If she could forget it happened she would… But she couldn’t…It just kept playing in her head… Over and over…

She took a deep, shaky breath. Breaking down to tears once again. She couldn’t believe he had did that to her. Carson was the only person she had left… She had no one… She was used to going through this s**t from Cade, and her dad, and Logan, and the guys at school… But not Carson…

They had been best friends for as long as she could remember… And they had been dating for the last four years… And now it’s just thrown away because he had to constantly get drunk and do drugs…

She had made up her mind. She was done. She was just going to end it, and it would all be over. So that was her decision.

She rose up, pausing for a moment to listen. She didn’t hear anything… All she heard was the raging of the storm outside. She walked over to her desk, and picked up her pocket knife.

She ran in gently across her arm, just feeling it barely scrape. Oktobar went and sat back down on her bed. She ran the blade hard against her wrist twice. Blood immediately poured from her arm. She did the same thing to her other wrist. She dropped the knife and fell back against her pillow. Blood spilling all over her black and red bedspread.

She soon drifted away and everything was just… Gone…

 

 

Author's Note

First Chapter. Kind of a prologue type deal. What do you think?

Reviews

[chandlerl]

lay on her bed in the first sentence doesn't quite sound right might want to try some other version of lay...like lays or something...idk
So far I've only read the first paragraph and i'm already hooked on her story i want to read for myself what exactly has brought her to this point, it also carries personal problems for me and has me wondering if it will somehow relate to my story...
Very discriptive and heartrenching to read, You truely are a lovely writer and I look foward to read more of your work,
Now, don't do what i do and flake on a story because you get bored of it, finish it because I plan on reading this...and what i say goes...jk.
Keep writing and I'll keep reading. =)
-C

[LostandAlone]

Yeah, I think it should be "lies on her bed"... Thanks so much! Yeah..
Thank you..
Yeah, I won't, I'm really into this story, and I plan on finishing it.. You too. :)

[chandlerl]

That is litterally the only flaw i could find so your definatly good on the first ch. very well written

[LostandAlone]

Yeah.. Thanks. :)

[chandlerl]

Your like...yes it was a good chapter...>=)
u will like my chapter...
caffiene affects me too hard...i need to quit caffeine to...=(
makes me sad

[xXChanceXx]

I really like this. It's different and shows so much emotion and imagery, which I'm sure is because of you being able to relate to this on a personal level, but it's written wonderfully. I really like this story so far.

[LostandAlone]

Thanks. Yeah... Thank you.

[xXChanceXx]

Welcomes.