Seeping

Times like this the hate seeps in

coming up from deep within

questioning how'd it all begin

and how to escape 

from the tar I'm in

Wondering how it came to be

that life isn't what you dream

or imagined in even

the worst nightmares

myself is who I really scare 

I know what I am capable of

and also of what I'm not

deep breaths, deep breaths

its a temporary slog 

times change 

you'll be fine

dry your eyes

have some wine

life can be good

you'll enjoy it

you'll see

you'll meet someone

you won't be lonely 

and still it seeps 

from within my throat 

through my lungs 

down to my toes 

will anyone come 

to take it away

or is it I and me alone 

who plays this game.

Reviews

[barleygirl]

Surely you are not the only one playing such games (love how your poem ends with questioning). Your poem describes how I feel in so many areas of life (others will relate, too!) I'm bipolar & when I'm riding high, I fear my rage will seep in & ruin everything. With my heart smashed many times in a long life, distrust and fear seep in to spoil each new potential. I thought I could overcome this infernal seeping, but at age 63, I'm pretty sure it's getting worse & worse! *wink! wink!* Fondly, Margie

[Laura Kate]

Hi Margie! Thank you so much for reviewing this piece and for sharing your experience of this. I heard recently that there are lessons to be learned in everything that happens, I wonder what the lessons would be that we can take from this seeping feeling. It's a beer difficult game to play!
With best wishes,
Laura

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Sylvia Plath was much like this poem...even in her happiest moments...those would so quickly be replaced by her putting herself down angrily...hate can replace love in an instant.
if we let it...it is an awful game...but somehow we have to find a way to avoid becoming involved in it.
j.

[Laura Kate]

I hadn't heard of Sylvia Plath before Jacob, but I am so interested and intrigued reading about her online. You also introduced me to Emily Dickinson not long after joining writers cafe which I was really grateful for too.
I really appreciate your comments Jacob.
Thanks a million
Laura