Disdain

The narcissist and the empath

These tears

will be the last ones

that I cry 

for you.

That pain in my throat

I realise now

it's not love

like you said it was

it is disdain.

Disdain

for the pain, 

for the way you'd scream my name

and for the blame

which you sow

into ever word you throw 

 at me.

The words you spit

hurtling towards me

like a tonne of bricks.

The passion you have

I realise

is not passion

like you told me,

it is anger.

Anger, 

that you stamped down 

on me

like the midnight sea

drunk in its own darkness  

gaining momentum

so that it can pound all of its might 

back down onto the cliffs

in a fit of rage. 

The destruction you leave behind

I was always trying to clear

walking away this time

with my very last tear

I think

how sad I am for you

and how much happier I could be.

Wiping the final tear from my chin

I think of me

and promise this to be the last time

that I think 

 of him. 

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

we can walk away from destruction or let it destroy us...the speaker is making a wise decision here.
the anger drunk in its own darkness idea is so strongly portrayed here.
i felt anger reading this...towards the subject of this poem.
and waited to cheer the speaker for erasing all thoughts of him.
j.

[Laura Kate]

I'm really glad to hear that this was portrayed strongly, and thank you Jacob for your supportive and helpful review.

[Neville]

no problem... N :)

[Neville]

wow.. there is a lot of emotion here.. mixed emotion too.. almost tangible... and sometimes, when it gets this bad ya just have to let go... I wonder tho.. will it be the last time ...

Neville

[Laura Kate]

Dear Neville, I am so sorry for the late reply. I think I must have posted this one and turned away from it for a while. Thank you so much for your insight.
Laura

[Chris Shaw]

Strong feelings conveyed here in your lines LauraKate. Some relationships are not meant to be and when they turn out as destructive as this, then it is time to walk away. In the long run it will prove favourable although short term painful.

Chris

[Laura Kate]

Dear Chris, I am so sorry for taking ages to reply. I think I posted this one and had to turn away from it for a while. Thank you as always for your insightful and kind review.
Laura

[Chris Shaw]

No apology necessary LauraKate. All good wishes sent. Chris

[Edie Blue Starfish]

I love the courage and strength in this.
A narcissist and an empath. Such an unhealthy relationship for anyone but especially some who is high empathy

[Laura Kate]

Dear Edie, my sincere apologies for not responding to this sooner! I really think I posted this and turned away from it for a while. Thank you so much for your kind and understanding comments.
Laura