Hopeless Love

A short monologue about a girls feelings in love.

It’s scary to know that the one you love will never love you back. I loved him for almost three years but he still doesn't look at me. Maybe he still loves my sister? I can never compete with her. She’s smart and pretty, and popular with everyone. I can’t even hold a normal conversation with him. Even so, it’s not like I stared loving him because I wanted him to love me back right away. Is my love only so much that I will give up here? Am I really that pathetic? I knew from the start that I would have to work for it…I just didn't think it would be so hard. Seeing him look at her and smile at her makes my stomach twist. I hate the feeling of jealousy. Even worst, I hate feeling that way about my own sister. I always encouraged her to get together with him. I always lied and said he annoyed me. I always lied and said “you two will be so cute together.” Why can’t I just tell the truth? Ha, I’m sitting here regretting everything but in the end I’m still standing in the same place…but no matter what I can’t stop this feeling. AHHhhhh I don’t care anymore, whether it’s painful or not I will still love him. Until my heart shreds to pieces and I can’t stand anymore I won’t give up! I may not be good at anything else and know nothing else, but I know I love you and I know I can’t live on think I didn't try…because in the end even if my love doesn't work out I can smile and say “I did my best.”