Alone again

Hearts broken by false promises, progress towards a better relationship nowhere in sight. Left feeling fooled by foolish words of better days and peaceful nights. Empty arms embracing sleep alone, walking through life without a fellow traveler. Dreams of true companionship flutter passed me, taunting and laughing at my wishful thinking. Living vicariously through daydreams and looking upon loving couples, secretly wanting what they have and hating them for knowing the tenderness I long for. Questioning my own character and counting my flaws, wondering why my importance to you is not so important to you. Day to day contemplation on how I can make myself feel less so that I could love you less. I sit admiring how easy it is for you to dismiss my needs, how I wish I could dismiss you that easily. Questioning my worth every time you do not follow through because I was not worth the time, not worth the energy, not worth the effort, not worth the truth. I hate you for not loving me enough, I hate myself for loving you too much, I hate the road I've traveled because it brought me here, the same place I always end up. I know this place all too well, you were supposed to be the one to keep me from returning to these woods, leafless trees of seclusion, skies filled with empty whispers of love, birds singing the melody of I told you so's. I've been here before, I've lived here before, I've spent thousands of nights here before, I've cried here before. I've left this place many times in search of a soul that was promised to me.