Sweet ReleaseA Story by W. V. H.Thoughts of the momentWhen’s enough, enough? This is
LIFE. So tired, so tired. It’s so heavy, they don’t tell you that in the
movies. Holding it in your hands you feel so powerful more powerful than ever
in your pathetic life. Others will tell you there are other ways and this may
be true but you’re on a mission. A narrow tunnel vision of self-destruction,
because quite frankly you just don’t care anymore. The sun will come up
tomorrow and the world will go on and no one will care what happened to some
nameless numbered person that faintly existed for a microsecond in this
universe. The slide clicks into place the safety is off, palms are clammy, so
nervous. The cold steel in your mouth, the metallic taste is overwhelming. You
squeeze the trigger, sweet release. An angel cries, no more pain. The last
sight is the fading vanilla sky above. (BUZZ!!!) The alarm
goes off time to wake up to real life. How sad, the nightmare of suicide is a
lucid dream of enjoyment. Well back to unemployment, bills you can’t pay binge
TV watching, eating into obesity. At least with the dream you felt like you
were accomplishing something. Self-deprecating only goes so far I mean how much
can you hate yourself really, booze and drugs are too expensive. And suicide
only costs the ones you love more money than they have. Cause for you, you’d be
that one with the father standing at your casket saying “What a prick, do you
know how much this is costing me?” So if you do die at least do it naturally or
saving a kitten from a burning building or something. So here we
are again in the breach of despair surviving hour to hour. As I look into your
eyes all I see is emptiness a bile inducing hatred of all things beautiful.
Wanting to be the Devil’s w***e. A slave to a society corrupted by its’ own
ambitions. A self-serving government that has failed in all respects. And
instead has herded you to a cliff of debt and false hope. Feel that it’s call
self-righteousness, because you feel entitled to something that was never yours
to begin with. Maybe I
should ask for help. Maybe I’m a little different from the rest. Maybe you
don’t understand me. Maybe you’ll figure it out, but doubtful. The innocence is
gone and the reality is the blind perception of your socio-economical belief. © 2013 W. V. H. |
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