My belongings..

Something you can read after my death.

Come into my little room
A square cage, and solace too.
Made of walls lilac in colour-
So dark they seem to fall on me.

At once you see a broken bed-
Almost broken, like my future,
Still bearing the weight of,
A sleeping mind, a resting present.

Comfort is scattered there too,
In form of pillows, slightly wet.
Sometimes because of my drooling
And sometimes...

Oh! Save your head rising up from here,
A stone shelf juts out there,
Kept on it is a bottle of cologne
My love gifted me once-
Only to ask back for it.

Decorated there and downwards too,
Are pages torn and chewed-
the evidence of my insanity.
And below it, inside the closet
Are my friends waiting for you.

Yes, a big bunch of small books,
And papers in wrinkled look.
Some to be read, some to be written
Kept beside a clumsy mess, as if hidden.

A coffee mug, perhaps two.
Too many keyrings to view,
In different colours and shapes and sizes
With them lie my fun devices.

Move left, but not too far,
Hidden behind, a window pane ajar
You find a plastic in which-
Is a peach cold cream and a berry lipbalm
Keeping pain away, from my visage.

Crushed from there weight is a little tube
Sweet smelling antiseptic, seldom used.
And thus it tells you, at last
I wasn't numb after all.

Petty it didn't dissolve my pain,
The day I got lost and found no gain.
Where am I now- living or dead you ask?
Am I dead- I don't know, but I never lived a life for sure.

Author's Note

Studying modern poetry in college... so may be its the influence. Review if you like it.

Reviews

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Very sad and depressing Penny, but mainly the end.
Sadly i also relate to the end part to.
I am truly sorry you feel like this.
You are a beautiful person, and I wish only for you to be happy.
Very emotional heartbreaking read.
Though its a good write as always.

[Penny]

I am really want to thank you but at the same time I am disappointed to hear that you can relate to it. :(

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Your welcome. I just meant sometimes im alive but feel dead.

[Penny]

I know. Thanks again friend.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Your welcomez penny

[cycy]

Where am I now- living or dead you ask?
Am I dead- I don't know, but I never lived a life for sure.

wow penny this is such an intriguing piece, very well written..didnt expect that ending at all...perfectly done.loved every single line.

[Penny]

Thanks a lot for this insightful review. You people always inspire me.

[cycy]

you welcome hun :)

[Eve Ola]

You penned it very well n somewhere i can relate too.Thanks for sharingg

[Penny]

Thanks a lot for reviewing, friend. Glad you liked it

[Saruwa]

Very well written. I feel the pain and loneliness in this. But a glimmer of hope lies in even asking if dead, giving us a view of life yet to be. I like it :)

[Penny]

Thanks a lot dear writer. I am glad you liked and even better that you interpreted it in a way that no one else did.

[Jyoti_Ablaze]

What a beautiful poetry... I loved it wholly and absolutely..
But the last three stanzas are surely a treat..
Enjoyed it..!

[Penny]

Thanks a lot dear friend. Your reviews make me love my writing more.. Thanks

[Pushkar Prabhat]

WoW!!!
how dark and depressing..........
eloquent and profound.........
amazing writing.....
i loved it!!!!
:)

[Penny]

Thanks a lot buddy, I was waiting for a long time for this review, your review.

[Pushkar Prabhat]

WoW.......sorry for being late........i haven't been been able to keep up with all thr RRs.......i have bern meaning to read your stories too.......i will soon........ i have disappointed a lot of story writers.

[Penny]

No please, its OK I totally understand. In fact, I myself wasn't very active lately so I had like above read requests. Anyway I think its about time both of us do justice to the story writers

[Pushkar Prabhat]

haha......one of these days........ :) :)

[sapna sagar]

a wonderful &.amazing poetry......aap achha to likhte hi hain pr ye kya khoob likha.

[Penny]

Bahot bahot shukriya.. Tassawur bhi nahin kiya that me miss dard mein likhi yeh nazm humein itni khhushi degi..

[sapna sagar]

dard ke bhaav jitni khubsurti se nikhar k ate hai shayad khushi k nhi.

[Penny]

Shayad....

[Dr. Wood ?]

the cafe throws up some gems now and again....Very insightful write this...A picture painted with the saddest thoughts

[Penny]

Thanks for stopping by sir.. Glad you liked it.

[Sami Khalil]

Excellent...:)...................

[Justin Xavier Smith]

Ahh! This is sad. Has a bit of the "Fight Club" mentality behind it of "you are not your possessions!" I don't know if that's the idea you were going for, but that's what I felt at the end. "I never lived a life for sure" is such a sad line, but it's so true for soooo many people. They just live in little boxes and collect useless things and then they die.

[Penny]

As I said.. "Something you can read after my death" and appreciation is what I wanted which, I mean it I got from this review. Thank you.