Scullion Of Lost Time

Scullion of Lost Time has a back and forth that depicts the cycle of emotional drowning and intellectual realization.

When you left, it hurt me

When you stayed, it burned me,

And I know you never thought you could do right

The hours that dripped with my tears

And bruises that screamed of my fears

With blood stains on both my skin and heart - is it better or worse that we're so far apart?

My monster took your life even as you were living it

The creature inside took the future that you dreamed of having

Beastly shadows around the corner

Lurking from my mind to your eyes

You lost it all protecting me from my fate

Your words were weapons to ensure my safety

Staying me in line to serve your needs

After you sacrificed for me; it wasn't fear, it wasn't weakness, it was all for my success

As your servitor

Unwillingly bound by emotions to you

My indentured servitude

Laying down all of me for you

While you are the victim, hero, mistreated slave.

Working away your days to aid

Treasuring what you've made

Mourning what you threw away

Although it was not my fault that you quit for me

Years before I started life

You gave up hope

You changed your mind

But it was done for me

My monster took your time even before it had passed.

The creature inside took the life that you longed to have

Beastly shadows at the crossroads

You placed them in my eyes

Your hecatomb of goodness to ease my selfish plight

Suffered indignities and violent fashions

What more could this world take from you

They ripped away your holy grail

You lived in a prison of yourself

Stuck with a gift shunned by the world

Although you never let them hear; it's all their fault and mine you had no fame

And I shudder when I hear your name

You keep on crying how it always hurts so bad

My natural life's trials set a siren - you retreat to safety

Stop up all my needs so I can save you from myself

Create a happy place where I can take on all the guilt

My monster was made in your heart before you passed it on

The creature inside was designed to keep me wandering in my own mind

Frightened shadows hide in corners

Tears of pain from my mind down my face

You took it all so you could live again

Reviews

[Papaya]

This sounds like an incredibly toxic relationship.
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