Stay?

im scared if I go and let you in

you'll know im not okay 

you'll see darkness has spread to far 

to save me anyway 

I don't know how to tell you 

im about to go away 

im not sure if you ever cared 

if you ever wanted me to stay 

or if I was just some shiny trophy 

to display in your case 

I don't know how ill get my s**t 

together in 2 days 

but I know that I just 

can't continue to stay 

I don't know how ill handle 

this decision that I made 

the only thing I know is I can't 

look back for the rest of my days 

I seem to hate myself for 

the things I couldnt say 

ive come to the conclusion 

that I can't bear to stay