Hating myself

I hate myself 

I hate what I've become 

I thought I was a strong person 

that would always refuse to succumb

im scared of everything 

even myself 

im scared of truly living 

and collecting dust on a shelf 

I hate the way 

I walk 

and talk

and dress

I hate that I don't know myself 

at the ripe age of 26

I don't know if I can go on

it hurts to damn much 

Ill have to suck it up 

someone wish me luck