Alone

I don't like to admit it 

but I've been alone forever 

I've never had anyone be there, truly

I was always uncomfortable with someone knowing me 

all the black rotted parts of me

cause thats not what others see

I've always tried to be this perfect thing 

for others 

never for me 

I hid parts of myself 

because I knew they were ugly 

and when I would come clean 

about the bruises and flinching 

no one really cared 

it made them distant, made them scared

they didn't understand 

they could'nt 

while they were busy being kids

and having a good life 

I was hiding my tears in shame 

and becoming familiar with a razor blade