Fire

I should be happy 

and grateful 

and alive 

but everyday I don't want to wake up 

I crumble and ache inside 

when will this end 

its been so long 

im starting to think 

I was very wrong 

I thought it was a phase 

a little blip in all my days 

but its been this way for as long as I can remember  

the flame I had is barely an ember 

its barely still glowing 

never growing

please someone extinguish me or pour the fluid of life back into my veins