Inner Realm

At times, the "spaces in our togetherness" are unintentionally too extreme. Elusive balance is the continual striving of the lovers' equation, so that it comes out whole.

I did not mean to leave you so abandoned,

            When I retreated far inside my mind.

 

I did not intend for you to suffer isolation,

            When I sought the safe refuge of my solitary self,

                        …apart from you, in your bed.

 

I did not wish to draw doubt or inflict harm,

            When I nurtured my own fears and fled from you,

                         Figuratively…

                         Absent, though you could feel the warmth of my proximity.

 

 

Those six small inches of mattress space

            I placed between us

                        as I withdrew

May as well have been the chasm of the Great Divide

            And I heard the perplexity of your voice in the darkness,

                        innocently questioning “Why?”

 

But icily immersed in my own inner realm,

            I could not feel you,

                        And no response was returned from me.

 

Thus, I abruptly introduced

            the anomaly of

                     “separation”

                             into our “togetherness”

 A place I inhabit frequently

            To which, you are unaccustomed.

 

So insulated, in my internal sojourn,

            Detached, out of fear, out of sync,

                       I momentarily exposed you

                       to the harsh wilderness

                            of dejection.

I know, that moment’s cold was chilling.

 

Lover, I am sorry,

           for I am flighty and precarious

                       Easily frightened by my own imaginings,

            I know to go…within.

But that does not mean I wish to be without you.

 

Author's Note

Scribblings on the porch, after an evening's moment spent traversing the Great Divide.

Reviews

[Lorraine Montez]

Thank you for taking the time, Dhiman, to offer such a comprehensive critique. I very much appreciate your insights, and your generosity. I'm glad you enjoyed the piece. Warm regards, Rain

[Inject Positivity]

You are always wholeheartedly welcomed my frnd... Always my pleasure...

[Inject Positivity]

Very thought provoking, there were so many thoughts that you have injected here, it feels like the speaker/poet is dealing with her inner conflicts, and the whole poem sounds like a monologue... I was quite amazed at your word choices, you have maintained a fine balance in the poem... The poem put in deep thoughts and it feels touching in some places... The ending line was quite beautiful... Lovely...

Sincerely
Dhiman