Too Heavy A Burden

like poison running through my veins

like a cancer eating my brain

consumed with anger

for you only disdain

this burden of forgiveness

i cannot bare

and in your guilt i will not share

only a child

helpless and meak

thrown into the hands of a stone cold freak

you were my father

but never a dad

you stole my innocence

were you evil

or just plain mad

you knew you shouldnt touch me there

and mom claims she was unaware

don't tell me youre sorry

i cannot forgive

when you are dead

i can finally live

when i cried you hit me harder

and then you want to play the martyr

you taught me nothing

only to hate

theres still time for redemption

its not too late

but don't tell me youre sorry

please dont burden me

cry to your maker

whatever that be


...gone now

gone at last

the time went by so fast

your bones turning to dust

that car you drove turning to rust

were you forgiven

is it cold where you dwell

are you in heaven

are you in hell

or do you cease to exist

sucked into the eternal abyss