Sometimes you don't want dreams to come true

Describes unconditional love

Sometimes you don’t want dreams to come true

We were in a city which seemed to be overcrowded with skyscrapers as we stood in an apartment on top of a building with no roof. It seems we did whatever we could to remain unnoticed but that wasn’t too difficult as we were in a city that was large but seemed to have very few people in it .

We stood with a few random faces in the roofless apartment as rain poured through the sky and lightning stuck so loud it made my heart tremble under its mighty roar. I kept trying to make sense of why I deserved to be standing in front of you ,apparently protected against the wrath of mother nature..

But why was I so fortunate of all people? Every person in the city was standing on a platform that  was inevitably going to sink and take them to fall into a grave below the surface of the very earth they once stood on . There is a latin saying that goes ‘mors certa, hora incerta’ which means death is certain but the hour is uncertain, but for these men the time of death was just as certain as death itself. The skies turned into pure chaos and abyss which told them their death was soon to come , their time was now.

The light from the flashes of thunder struck so forcefully that it caused the entire sky to light up so bright that it turned the night to day. The wind was so ruthless it pushed and shoved every standing person on the surface of every other  building off the edge. Everyone but you and me..

It was when the thunder when silent for a mere moment that I realized you were actually screaming out in true pain and a cry of heartfelt anguish. You were so hurt that your sorrow was visible in the tears you were crying.

 You looked at me and said “ I love you more than life itself, after all, you truly are all that I have”. “ You’re all I have!”you repeated as you cried against my chest

In every deep damn vault on earth , heaven, in eternity or time

Hold me close my love,Adam never leave me alone

It is the dirty waters fault which taints the white dove and turns it to crime

Yet, Gold reflects as it flutters but alas why does it seek a forbidden bough!

( explanation :  Don’t blame me for falling in love, I was a pure clean white dove but it is the dirty waters ( my environment) that made my thinking dirty and made me turn to forbidden love ( crime) . Even though I am dirty because of this crime, I flutter gold ( I am still very attractive in your eyes ) but despite doing the wrong and knowing it I STILL SEEK the forbidden BOUGH ( bough is the branch of a tree Alas!. I seek the forbideen bough, means I seek after forbidden love despite it all )

“ Never leave me , Adam. This life is what it is because of your presence and I need you in it. Without you there is no life at all”

“Dwell in these arms forever my darling , you are merely the life which gives this heart a beat.   

  Dwell on your finger forever will my ring, to protect our love from the devils words of deceit.

I was so disorientated but still understood that mother nature was definitely trying to punish everyone else besides us. It seemed as if we were in some sort of funeral. You struggled to breath as you sobbed uncontrollably and held me tighter than ever.

 But as I held you in my arms, I started getting more nervous , agitated and anxious. It was as if I could predict something bad was about to happen. I could feel your hand turn cold and as I looked into your eyes to see their despair transform to anger.

As you got angry I could see your cheeks turn to the very same shade of red that is burnished on to autumn leaves . The trails of tears on your cheeks and their red color was a strong contrast against your skin which was now turning pale as your breath seemed to get colder and colder. I could feel you getting more emotionless as I held your hand and looked into your eyes with confusion trying to figure out what this meant..

I turned to your pale lips which said “ It’s all your fault. He didn’t deserve this, but you deserved everything that happened to you!.” These words seemed to pierce right through my heart like a dagger and I felt as though it became harder to breathe and I wanted to say ‘I’m sorry for everything I am and everything faith has forced me to do.” But my lips were sealed.

You stood there staring into my eyes and said “ All the unfortunate things that have happened to you were all things you were destined for. Don’t you see , Adam? You can give the devil wings and fly him to the heavens , but he will never belong because at the end of the day even he knows he belongs in hell and one way or another he will always be below the angels. He can disguise himself for merely a few days at most but eventually the ground will realize he doesn’t deserve to step on it and will cease to support his feet and make him fall back into the very place where he came from. The higher the heaven, the steeper the fall, Adam.”

The thunder began roaring loud as I began noticing how our platform got higher and it got colder and I could feel frost forming against my bones and freezing my blood to ice and slowly it down As my blood struggled to move despite the ice it caused the ice to form sharp edges in my veins which were now cutting me from the inside out. 

 

 

 

“ And how have the past few days been Adam? Have they not been wonderful? Have they not been the best days of your life? Tell me!”

“ Spending time with you is nothing short of what I imagine it’s like to be in heaven” I replied.

You looked at me and said “  interesting, well , you know what that means, right?.. “

Even before I could finish hearing you, I felt my heart become as lifeless as a rock and sink to the bottom of my soul and I felt what Julius Caesar must have felt as he cried out “et tu , Brute?”. Even you Brute? You were so close to me and even you could betray me he cried in his last words. This is what he must have felt as I realized you were just like everyone else who has betrayed me  throughout my miserable life.. As you said those words , it felt like my heart crashed against a surface of an ocean filled with hatred and deception.

As my heart crashed against the surface it shattered into several pieces in so many directions disorientation and eventually sank below the surface very slowly. The longer my heart took to sink , the longer I suffered till it sank and my life ended. Why did it have to sink so slow? Is it just another way to extend the duration of my exploitation?

I was looking at you too intensely to notice that there was a man standing behind you and holding you by your waist. He seemed more like an angel of a sort but it didn’t seem to possess the good will of an angel, he was very tall with dark wings and as he stood there I could see dark clouds of air floating off his skin . He stared at me and gave me a smile as if to tell me that he was going to enjoy what was about to happen. I saw the betrayal in your eyes but despite being crushed, my heart was not willing to accept that you had it in you to betray my trust. I could see it right in front of my eyes yet I refused to believe that you had abandoned me. I felt as if I was being choked to death as I tried to think of explanations but I couldn’t . It was clear that you had brought my biggest fear to reality and I was headed for the inevitable nightmare I had hoped I would never live to see..

Why don’t these eyes see that which lies clearly before them? I can’t see, maybe love is the reason I am so blind

These eyes cast spells which cloud skies that were once clear as gem.Thus, I can’t see that love is just an illusion of the mind

I could feel the ground was losing its sturdiness as it waved from side to side showing me how it didn’t want me to stand on it. The roof of the building I was standing on, slanted from side to side as I rolled , jumped and ran from corner to corner trying to maintain my balance and keep myself from falling into certain death. I was amazed to look at you standing with what seemed like your hero, your savior and I guess I shouldn’t have been surprised to see that the both of you had perfect balance.

You took one last glance at me , turned around and held your savior against his chest before diving off the edge of the building.

I cried “ don’t dive towards the afterlife only  to fall to heavens and discover the gate has a lock”

I cried, in this realm you shall battle, strive, little victory with a lot of suffer yet in the end you will gain."--

But you answered I can only fight against so much terror, eventually I will be ruined by the quakes of this tempest shock

I screamed “Let not this tempest frighten you my dear, for courage is what you will gain and as that remains you will discover there is yet so much more to attain!”

(tempest: violent storm)

 

Author's Note

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