My twisted plan

Here's another poem I found from three years ago. Sorry if you find it a little dark.

As I watch you leading your new life

I can't stop the feeling of needing to take a knife

I could take ten more minutes of pain

At least then my life would feel sane.

 

The glorious feeling as the knife would cut through

Cut through the throat I thought I knew

It would be the best feeling to have done something right

To hold that knife in the middle of the night.

 

To hear your screams and your yelp

As you cry "Somebody help!"

To feel that knife in my hand

And say "Your life is over, do you now understand?"

 

Do you understand all the pain you put me through?

All those nights I cried over you

You hurt me so much

That killing you would be such a rush.

 

But alas I cannot do it

Don't get me wrong I'd love to cut through

To cut through the throat I thought I knew

But I cannot do it because... I still love you.