Thirteenth October

I guess it was the thirteenth of october
I gave up to my whims, I remember
I know you'll find it hard to remember
And now its past december
You ask me if I'm okay
Can't you see what's as clear as day
Oh you can never because you're too oblivious
Even when it was all so obvious
I know you like the back of my hand
Oh how ignorant I was
To search for a needle in endless sand
How I ran behind a lost cause

So it really was the thirteenth of october
When I got my hopes up, I remember
You told me you can never
Oh how I thought I'd be treasured
You ask me if I'm doing well
I'm dying inside, can't you tell
I guess it's not your fault
My treacherous heart likes to revolt

I guess I can't remember that date of sins
I've been walking on broken glass ever since
My feet have became numb now
As I try to recall the pieces of that vow
I took before decsending the agonizing path I found
Taking bloodstained steps without a sound
Tears of agony streaming down
Tired of wandering on this endless road to that heart of yours
Tired of fighting against my heart's lost wars
So I've come to a halt
My stained clothes and drained thoughts
My bleeding wounds and exhausted heart

I wish I'd forgotten the date along the way
Though I once used to say
I will remember it forever
Have you tried to memorize it ever?
I know you didn't because destiny is rough
I guess I didn't try hard enough
I was trying to scream
But no voice came out
I found it was my dream
I woke up with a shout

Maybe the date was cursed or my love was it my destiny
I was the victim of my own felony
A soul drunk on euphoric melancholy
"Unrequited but forever" was what I promised to myself, I remember
You told me to move on, said it's better than to remember
But I still have that date buried in my memory like a blazing ember
Yes, after all it was really thirteenth october

~Ankita

Author's Note

I don't know if anyone will relate to it..but to go through this hellish paradise is once a lifetime experience for sure.

Reviews

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

I know its hard and each of us go through this but remember the light follows the dark. Happiness follows sadness after all....Keep walking. Stay hungry, stay foolish!!!

[Misty Daze]

I'm! and I've continued walk even after realizing it and yes it hurts but I know that's the beauty of it. To be someone's from heart even after knowing they can't be ours. Yes that's unrequited love for you!

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

Good to know. Take care!!!

[Misty Daze]

Thanks😊!!!