I want to write again..A Story by Long Whispers It's been over two weeks and I have not been
able to write something constructive and this is the longest I have gone empty
of thoughts and devoid of words since I got into writing. Between words and
thoughts, there's always one lagging behind. Sometimes, it's the thoughts that
don't collaborate and sometimes it's my words that fail to express my thoughts
the way it gives the correct essence of what I'm holding inside, yearning to
express it out. And the damage the whole thing does to my
me, feels beyond repair for so long, till I finally find a way to bring both
together with a balance of expression and the message that's being conveyed. But for now I have not been able to find a way
to bring it together and here I am, about to enter the third week. Writing this anxiety down while counting my
days of hollowness pains me. I reckon, have I forgotten the language that I've
been studying since I was four or have I lost my memory of everything I ever
wrote or read for whenever I hold the pen to write, it feels like I'm taking my
very first step at it and I have no clue of having it done before. It reminds
me of the fear I held when I was writing down my first piece. The fear of self
disappointment! Yes, I feared my own judgment. I remember how much time I had
taken to muster up courage to write down my very first writing and greater
courage to make it public. Fortunately, I regret neither of it. However,
it hurts me going through all that, all over again to find new courage to write
once again. I have increased my reading time, and I read
with a greater focus now to grasp any idea or anything that might click. But
nothing does! And if anything does, I feel more helpless to
take it ahead with my personal vision, unlike before. I feel stuck. I want to write. I want to write, desperately! I don't know how to overcome the mighty obstacle that's sucking
the soul out of me. An anxious voice inside my head tells me that
may be I'll never get to write again. Only if I know how to silence it.. © 2017 Long WhispersFeatured Review
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