Failed

I have failed.
I have lost again.
Why do I keep doing this?
I keep trying but why?
I know what will happen.
Why do I put myself through this?
I keep setting myself up to sink lower and lower into myself.
I hate that.
I hate this.
I hate everyone and no one.
I hate everything and nothing.
I failed again.
How can I do this?
How can I stop?
I can't, that is the problem.