Suicide

Its about suicide. I want this subject to get more attention. Because it happens a lot in these times.

Suïcide. 
This word so little but the effect of this word is so strong. I see lately this word a lot. Suicide. It is a dark word in my opinion. A word that can destroy a lot. On the outside as well on the inside. I am scared for this word. Suicide. Every time I hear this word it remind me of a girl. She was strong, thug and smart. She didn’t had a bad life but she just felt like everything she is working for goes to waste. I try to talk to her, but she told me that her perspective won’t change. She is depressed but she has an ok life. I am scared that I am losing her, again. A few days ago this girl said to me ‘’ Thank you for everything you have done, thank you. Well I am going now for forever. ‘’ I didn’t get her at first but soon I realize it. I was messages her she never replied back never… until I heard from someone that she ended up in the hospital. She tried to suicide. Suicide. It can not only change you but also your surroundings. People are saying that suicide is selfish and bad. But you can’t force someone to live. If living doesn’t make the person happy why would u put your energy in it. I know you can try it, because in a few cases people will change and see a light through the darkness what can save them. One of the strongest lights is the light of love. Love can change a lot of things but it can also destroys that light. The person who wants to suicide can get attach to that one thing that keeps them alive and in cases as love the people who get attached can get another interesting in love. And leaves the person who wants to suicide… bad results will come. Suicide. It sounds cold, dark and painful. Every time I read it I get this image of someone with pills, knives or standing on high and closes her eyes ready to fall and leave everything behind. This image is painful, I don’t want to see it but lately I do see them. Not by me, but by the people around me. The people I love, the people what I care about. People who I hold dear to me. Suicide. I ones saved one person but I am not a hero I can’t save everyone. If I could I would, I really would, but I can’t. suicide. Why do people kill themselves? Because of the world. It is a dark place and people making each other doing it, in our unconsciousness. We might not even know we are doing it but we do. Suicide. Something what you can read every day in the new paper. Suicide. Every day more. Suicide. Looks like the best escape right? Running away from everything. Suicide. Better than hurting yourself? Suicide. How many times should I say it. Suicide. This word is just flashing through my head, a word so painful and dark. Suicide. Sorry that I leave you all note. Suicide. People who will find you somewhere. Suicide. The explanation, why. Suicide. Death made by you or? Suicide. Something so small but it is worse. Suicide. People who saying they are going to kill themselves but are lying and wanting to get attention. Suicide. Messages or not. Suicide. Do you tell the people or do you keep it for yourself so you won’t bother other people. Suicide. Online suicide or liars. Suicide. Should have more attention. More and more people are getting depressed every day. People make each other depressed. Suicide. Why do you exist. Suicide. Why. Suicide….

‘’ I know this is a cold message from me but I just experience something. I experience it online and it maybe never real but stories like this can happen. But since that one thing happened. I just had to make a post about it. In the past few days I have felt a very bad pain because she was gone for days and then I heard she was in a hospital. Sick and weak. Laying and waiting to die. But she didn’t she failed at her suicide because her parents found her to soon. She just got 15 years. She is
still in live, but is in a very weak condition. She didn’t want to stay in the hospital so she demanded her parents to take her home. She is now home, in a worse state. This is the information I got. We maybe never know if this real. But suicide need attention.’’

Author's Note

I just wanted to say this. It is just to get some attention to this subject. And i needed to share my feelings and the way to do it is writing...