Loved and Lost

Loved and Lost

I told you I loved you with all my heart,

With everything in me.

You said you loved me too,

That nothing could split us apart.

But here we are, 

Fighting, making up, 

Then fighting some more.

Me telling you that I don't care about your past,

It made you who you are.

You telling me that I could do much better than you.

Well I don't care,

I want you.

You promised we wouldn't part,

Go separate ways,

That we would be together.

Then why am I here and you there?

Not talking, trying to fix what happened.

Fighting not caring anymore.

Should I move on like my brain tells me to?

Or keep loving you like my heart is begging my brain to change its mind?

Even if my brain changes,

Will you?

Will you be the one to apologize and make it better?

Or are you waiting for me to do it again like usual?

My heart says stay,

Fight for him, 

Don't let him go.

My brain says you don't need the pain,

The crying myself to sleep,

Over a guy who won't fight for you.

Forget him,

Like he is forgetting you.

My heart and brain bicker like we used to.

Now even the bickering,

Fighting,

And love is gone.

Will it come back?

Probably not.

It is said, 

"Better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all."

I think loving and losing is worse than never have loving.

If you never love,

You don't get hurt by the people you love.

I just hope someone will love me one day,

As much as I loved you.

But by then will I be over loving you enough to love them in return?