It's A Very Unsettling Feeling...

Thoughts.

"Its just a very unsettling feeling, depression. To be sad literally all of the time and not be able to stop it. When people say it’s like you can’t breathe, that you are drowning, they couldn’t be more accurate. But, you see, the worst part about it isn’t being depressed yourself, but having to see the people you love and care about most go through it. To know exactly what their pain is like but not be able to help them. I have this thing where I’m very protective of the people I care about, and when they tell me that they are sad or hurt or depressed its like the hands around my throat tighten. It’s like I’m being repeatedly punched in the gut. The chains holding me underwater get shorter and tighter and heavier. It’s so hard because I don’t want them to feel this way, like I do. I want to be able to fix them and help them and when I hear that they are sad or lonely or feeling abandoned I feel like I have failed them, that I haven’t done my job. I just keep getting beat in the chest, and it hurts, and I don’t know how to make it stop."

Reviews

[Chris]

Perhaps it isn't that YOU are broken... some people FEEL so much of what is around them that they take it into their minds and hearts.

Sometimes we can feel we lack control over even the basics of our own existence and even that we are just so numb because we are overwhelmed... cutting has its rewards...