well this is going to be a bit of a sad poem.A Poem by Amaris Velez
Well this is going to be a bit of a sad poem.
Friday June 28, we broke up. And I shed exactly two
tears, but only because you didn’t fight for me. I wanted you to show me you loved me, and you gave up. We were two days shy of making a year. It is now Tuesday night/ Wednesday morning. 12:31
AM. 7/3/2013. And you still haven’t called nor text me. I don’t know why I expected so much from you why I
thought that you would make an attempt, even after a year you never made an
attempt. I still haven’t found the power to cry, maybe
because a part of me knows you never loved me in the first place. Love is what I showed you. The way I thought about
you, the way I looked at you, the way I talked about you, the way I wrote poems
about you, the way I closed my eyes and listened to you talk, that was love. And no matter how many times people say you were
just shy, it doesn’t matter. Because when you love somebody everyone will know
it. And not even I, who was dating you, knew it. Now when I watch romance movies I don’t wish I had
that love story. I get really pissed off because I thought that that was what I
had, and it was a lie. Everything you did or said was a lie. And I know
this because everything I said and did was the truth. And the day we broke up
you couldn’t even lie to me to tell me you would attempt in the relationship. It doesn’t hurt that
we broke up. I’m just hurt because you didn’t care enough to attempt. It was
all me from the start. It was my LOVE for you that made me think you would show
me something back and I waited a YEAR. That is what love does. And you fed into it
saying that you loved me too and that you felt the same way from the beginning.
But it was just me telling you what to say. The next day I drank two cups of wine. And I texted
you my feelings and how I wish you would’ve fought for me. And you told me you
still love me and I threw my phone on the table and yelled, that you should
have told me that while I was breaking up with you, to absolutely no one. And
then I reread the texts and realized that you were doing what you were good at. You were just trying to make me feel better. And that was probably the worst feeling I have ever
felt because it didn’t help at all. And I didn’t cry at all these past few days because
“I was strong” and “you didn’t deserve me anyway”. But now I am crying because it finally sank in. you
still haven’t text me, called me, or showed up at my doorstep telling me you
were an idiot. It’s too bad that my life wasn’t written by Nicholas
sparks, because maybe this would have a happy ending. But it doesn’t.
And this is still a very sad poem. © 2013 Amaris Velez |
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