{blog.entry_19}

.roll.the.dice.

i try {to ignore} it all

but my bandages are all bled through

never thought i would like the color red this much

maybe i can hoist the colors

make a flag out of my dirty old rags

i don't need anything else

but me, myself, and i.

what more could {you} possibly do to me

that you haven't done before

ha. haha. hahaha.

throw your punches

gut me while i still breathe

looking you dead in the eye

as you insult me with your attacks.

pathetic {all of you} anyone

everyone who stood by and watched me drown

turning a blind eye

as i burned to the ground

knowing the truth all along

hoping the best

while knowing the absolute worst done to me.

yes. forever changed. no longer what you all once knew. i would bid you farewell. but instead. i will wish all of you....

{good luck}

Author's Note

~
to ignore.
you.
all of you.
good luck.
~

Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

At first it seems that your anger and pain is addressed to only one person - an abuser. But then you are accusing others for being indifferent, callous which yes, must have made you feel completely alone, without hope of being helped, saved. My thoughts go to long-term terror, poor dear living lavender.

In spite of all that, somehow, miraculously, you have managed to pen then share this very fine and courageous writing, Can only hope and pray that somehow you can move on..

[living lavender]

i appreciate your kindness and concern. thank you for caring.
i am fine now. still healing. but doing better.
{better than before.}

[emmajoygreen]

That must be such such a relief for you , So hope you are well away from all that

[June bug]

It is hard to ignore a write like this. It feels like a life of someone being bullied.
It is sad to ignore feelings like that. I was bullied and as well as picked on my whole
life cause I was different from everyone and still am.

[living lavender]

thank you for your review babe.
though i do not approve of bullying ~ this one came from being wronged by someone who once said the words "i love you" and finally finding the strength to stand my ground. they can't hurt me much more than they already have. so in other words {bring it on} ~ also. know that you may be different but you are beautiful and different is misunderstood. but not a bad thing. ;)